Johan vowed that he'd never do anything gay. What's happened to his firm conviction that he can't ever be touched sexually by a man? Persistence. I asked over and over when he called desperately looking for work. His mental barrier against it slowly crumbled as he began to understand this is something men are expected to do if they want to be in the business and get more work. Reluctantly, he finally came along for a groping hands session though he was still very uncertain about whether he wanted to do this.